Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Came across this picture. It gives me the chills more than any other. This is in the doorway of the church where we were married. Ill never forget the other picture in my head in this same doorway. It was the end of the funeral - I remember the pallbearers exiting the pews first and carrying Amanda toward this same door. It was March 2nd and there was a big heavy snowstorm. I remember stopping at the exit with them to the side and the casket directly in front of me and the doors opening. It may have been the most beautiful thing I ever saw. The way the snow was coming down - blizzard like, with Amanda right there - my hand on the casket and a vague ray of sun kind of sneaking through the clouds lighting up this picture that formed right before my eyes. There was a significant pause or at least it felt like it - where I really just looked in fucking awe at what I was seeing. It was so bright and dark. People all around to my sides were just a blur. That will forever be in my head as the last time seeing Amanda. What a grand exit to Heaven she made...