Christmas 2008

Ironically, today x-mas eve, when going through a chest drawer to find some clothes for Gianna I discovered some cards Amanda and I had exchanged.

The card that most touched me is the one I gave her last year. We had no idea that in less than a month our world would be completely different and that in exactly 60 days she would be gone...
Inside, I wrote:
"My favorite Christmas gift now and forever is knowing that you share my life with me"
Our first Christmas in our new house and our last as just the two of us. Thank You for giving me a family and making me realize what really matters more than anything in the world. Making you happy makes me complete and I hope I can do that everyday forever babe. The new adventures of us are about to begin and I cant wait to share them with you! Love you always, Me.

I am at peace today and wish everyone a Merry Christmas.

Im glad its not beginning to feel a lot like Christmas - 60's in Dec is pretty nice! I thought this entire time around the holidays was going to be really tough but so far its all okay. I knocked down one more class toward my MBA that just finished. Gianna has been so fun to watch and play with over the last several months. Crawling all over the place, getting into everything she shouldnt, crawling up my leg to get my attention...she's so f'n cute.
I've wanted to write so much so many times but never end up doing it anymore. Why? I dont know....some of it is really dark and some of it is really really great. I think I have surprised myself at how far I've come from just a bunch of months ago. Scary to think its almost been a year....in fact I'm already planning Gianna's 1st b-day. Weird year. Feels like a century ago.
I see a new life forming for me and am curious to see what 2010 has in store....
Be mindful of all the moments you have with your loved one. Someone once said "I've had my moments, I just wish I had more of them."