Its been 60 days since Amanda passed away. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday others it feels like it was 10 years ago...one day at a time I suppose.

Gianna is 3 months old and is doing great. She got to spend the weekend with her other grandma and had a great time while I played golf and drank too much in Marthas Vineyard with my father in law. What a beautifully perfect 70 degrees it was out there...

Some pics of Amanda and I on top of Mt Washington

Relay for Life Event

Follow the link below to "Amanda's Pandas" team and, if possible, make a contribution to this great cause. Thanks to all my family and friends for setting this up and participating.

http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY09NE?team_id=431390&pg=team&fr_id=16324

"If you're going through hell, keep going."

Hello, Im Gianna Rose and I have a fancy bracelet to show off! I also wanted to show you the special treat I made for my daddy this morning!!!

Consider yourself lucky that I didn't post pictures of what came out of my mouth after dealing with the above!

One of Gianna's first big smiles and a picture from our helicopter ride in Maui

Check this group out:

http://www.kfkdancingforlife.org/index.html

What a great group of people I met yesterday at their annual dance competition.

One of my good friends knows someone on the board and shared Amanda's story. They decided to make a generous donation to Gianna's college fund. I got to see lots of cute little ones in dance costumes and cant wait for Gianna do the same!

It was very ironic in that there was no mention of dance when my friend was talking about Amanda. I found out that this fund raising corporation was founded by a bunch of dancers in the 90's...the same time Amanda was in her prime of dancing - Dancing was Amanda's favorite thing to do and she was most certainly there with Gianna and I yesterday. 

Such a good mommy! Amanda got to spend lots of time like this with Gianna before she passed away. I miss those eyes and that smile so much.

Today is a big day for Poppa Gino and Mr Enzo - our persian cats. It was a tough decision to make but I put them up for adoption because I felt awful about neglecting them for these past few months. They loved their mommy. I was laughing out loud in the middle of the night remembering what Enzo used to do to my wife. Enzo had what I would call a "hair fetish" - my wife would be reclined on the couch with her hair hanging off the back. Enzo would storm down the hall into the family room, leap like a horse and attack Amanda's hair hanging off the couch - she would get so pissed at him! I would crack up and then she would get mad at me too! He would jump into bed and sleep on her pillow right on her hair. He would drag his toys all the way from the basement up to our bedroom on the top floor of our house and drop them on Amanda's hair in the middle of the night as a gift. But she loved them dearly. They are going to a really good home with two kids to keep them really busy. They will be missed but it is for the best.

So we took Gianna for some professional pics today and the photographer wanted her butt naked for a few pics...I knew that was asking for some trouble! So Im holding her and feel the inevitable warm feeling on my arm - but just a few drops so I hold her out and the photographer gets down to wipe it off the floor when Gianna is directly over the ladies head...Wanna guess what happened? GOLDEN SHOWER!!!! I was dying laughing...poor lady, well at least it wasnt #2 all in her hair!!!

Another good one: "It's not other people's job to understand you; it's your job to make yourself understood."

Funny Quote of the Day - "If you saw someone you knew drowning, would you ask them to call you if they need anything?" 

Dont anyone take that the wrong way - its just funny how many say "call me if you need anything" I got a kick out the line above and hope you do too.

Looks like Gianna is gonna be a shot drinker when she's older. I started her reflux medicine today and the doc said it tastes like peppermint schnapps - she loved it!

Pics for today are Amanda on my old Gixxer and a picture of us when I had hair!

Just want to give a special thanks and hello to all my fellow widow/widower buddies from our favorite forum...your all so helpful!

College Era Pictures...

Im in the process of putting together a young widow/widower support group in the Hartford, CT area since none currently exists. I've had someone say "Why dont you join a divorcee support group, they suffered a loss too." I said FUCK YOU (in my head) and decided to start one for people that didnt lose someone because their marriage didnt work! So Ill post details once I get there...

Maui...

Cool Picture

Pictures say more than words right now...and this one is really cool.

Best Day of My Life

Hello Everyone

I was inspired to create a blog after hearing and then reading about www.mattlogelin.com.

I'm Dan, a 27 year old father and widower as of 2/25/09. My wife Amanda was my world for 9 years. We met in college and were together ever since. Amanda was diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia out of the blue when she was almost 7 months pregnant this past Jan. Baby Gianna was born a few days later at 30 weeks gestation weighing 3lbs 3oz. Amanda began chemo but passed away from a terrible condition called necrotizing fasciitis on 2/25. My world was turned upside down on 1/18 when she was diagnosed - what happened on 2/25 has not become my reality just yet...

I have tremendous support from family and friends but wanted to post about My World.

Gianna is now almost 3 months old and weighs almost 10 pounds.